Last year I set myself what I then thought was the rather ambitious goal of having my most sexually active year; I wanted to have sex with 24 people over the course of 2012, and I’ve managed it (most I’ve blogged about, some I haven’t). Along the way I’ve somehow found myself seven hundred kilometres from where I started, doing porn at one point and having protracted dramas with various people at various points of the year, some of whom I ended up sleeping with anyway, some I didn’t. A lot of last winter and spring feels like a blur, really distant; and yet other things that happened much earlier are still in very sharp focus. Funny how memory works, isn’t it?
For 2013, I haven’t set myself any goals. Largely this is because I’ve just been to busy to sit down and reflect on what I want from this year and what I want to improve on, and partly also because I feel, really, where do I go from here? I’ve done a lot over the last few years and while I wouldn’t say I’ve done everything, I have done quite a lot of it. I need to leave myself something to have a mid-life crisis over in thirty years or so, don’t I? (Do I?). I’m not talking about life in general, really I just mean sexually. There are some avenues I’ve yet to explore, and probably some which I don’t even know exist yet but tumblr will inform me of in due course. I can actually already foresee one train wreck of a disaster coming up – my prediction is for sometime in about April but I wouldn’t be surprised if it happened sooner – but I’ll not give away too many details about that. Don’t want to spoil the surprise now, do I?
Other goals for the year are much easier to work out; I want to do well in this Masters course I’m doing, first and foremost (my course director put it very bluntly the other week when she told me, “your entire future is literally at stake here. But you’re doing very well”) and that has to be my priority until the summer. I also have a placement coming up and I’d like for that to go well, I want to leave and have the people that I’ve been working with still remember me a week, month, six months later; I want to take someone on a date, or be taken on a date, though that might have to wait a while for various reasons. There are a few other ones that I’ll not write about here at the risk of boring you all or giving too much away. But I do think it’ll be an exciting year, even if most of it for me is hugely uncertain.
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